I Don't Understand, But That's Okay

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'"

Jeremiah 29:11

God is so good, and knows exactly what you need to hear in a specific season or situation. Last week, I received a call that I was not expecting and hoped would never come. My long awaited trip to Zimbabwe has been cancelled. I was overwhelmed, heart broken, and full of questions. Some of those questions I may never have the answer to. 

My biggest question was "why?". Why would God give me this incredible opportunity to do what I love and what He created me to do, and then it be taken away? Why did I come so close to my fundraising goal just to have it yanked out from under me? Why did this happen so close to the trip dates? I was obedient in following your call, so why did this happen? Needless to say, I was a little angry with God. There are still many things I don't understand about what happened. I may never understand it fully. But then God gave me a verse. 

Jeremiah 29:11. 

"Plans to prosper you, not to harm you."

"Plans to give you a hope and a future."

God's plans for my life are far greater than any I could come up with on my own. They are for good, not for bad. They aren't to cause pain or harm. They are so I can have a prosperous life, using my gifts to serve his Kingdom. While I am disappointed and saddened by what has happened, I know that my desire to go to Zimbabwe can't match up with what God has in store for me. I am SO excited to see what He has for me next, and it can only be bigger and better than Zimbabwe. 

I want to thank everyone who has contributed towards the trip. While I will not be using the funds, they will be distributed to other individuals who are following God's call in the missions field. If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to contact me. I would love to talk to you more, and answer any questions I can. 

Thank you so, so much. You have all been a huge blessing to me, and in turn we are able to bless many others. 

Much love, 

xoxo Becky